Friday, March 19, 2010

Good Reasons ...

I'm scared.

Not fear-for-my-life scared or holy-crap-that's-a-giant-spider scared, but "What if this actually pans out?" scared.

Maybe most people aren't like me. Or maybe I have plenty of company on this front, but in my mind, there's a pretty big gulf between thinking about success/wishing for success/wanting success and success itself.

One is hypothetical, one is concrete. Careful what you wish for, indeed.

There's a company in New York that's developing a show about amateur bakers. That'd be me. The only thing preventing me from going pro is that I'd like to be able to bake in the Olympics someday. Oh, wait, no, the Olympics are open to pros now.

So the only thing from preventing me from baking in the Olympics is the fact that there is no baking event in the Olympics. Which is kind of a shame, really, because what would be more charming during the Winter Olympics than an event that produced the best cookies to enjoy with a cup of cocoa?

But a television show featuring amateur bakers would be cool. And my cousin Patty sent the link to the site to me which contained information about the show and how to apply.

So I applied. And someone from the show was in touch to thank me for my materials and to inform me that they'd be in touch if they wanted any further information. Don't call us, we'll call you, so to speak.

And then earlier this week, I received an e-mail that began:


And informed me that I'd been selected for the next round, as it were, and that now they wanted to see a video of me in action. No firm deadline, they said, but they'd like to see something in the next two to three weeks.

Cool, I thought. I can make something happen in two to three weeks.

And then, the next morning, I received a follow-on e-mail letting me know that there had been a change to the schedule and that they now needed something by next week. Wednesday. Or, put another way, in eight days.

Hmm. Well, now. Perhaps there's increased interest in the show. Or perhaps they want to see if we can kick things into gear and roll with the changes.

Either way, I now have to get a video shot and edited and into their hands by Wednesday.

For those playing along at home, today is Friday.

The good news is that I have a plan. Several plans have combined into one plan and I should meet the deadline.

And the further good news is that it would be really cool to be a part of this show. In my application, I mentioned that Bill Kurtis loves my oatmeal-raisin cookies and that perhaps he could do a cameo on my episode. Fun, right? I haven't asked him yet, but he'd probably do it. He's game for pretty much anything (his AT&T commercials are testament to that) and he's a friend and, most importantly, he'd get oatmeal-raisin cookies out of the deal.

And the potentially even further good news is that this could lead to something else, right? Rachael Ray has to run out of hours in the day sometime, eh?

And this is precisely the point in this whole scenario in which I stop and say, "Eeeeek!"

Something new! Eeek!

Something different! Eeek!

Something which could lead to people referring to me as "the talent"! Eeeeeeek!

All good "Eeeks!", mind you.

One of the quotes on my office wall is: "Man can learn nothing except by going from the known to the unknown." Claude Bernard said that. And he was right.

Still. Eek!

My pal Dave pointed out that I used to be scared to sing and that I overcame that. I laughed and said, "Yeah, for one person. I only sing for Brian." But that's not entirely true. I've performed in front of groups. In a cabaret. And I lived to tell about it.

And everyone has to start somewhere, right?

My Twitterpal Angelo wrote, "You'll be great. Be original. It will always be successful if you are ... ."

Original, indeed. I can't think of anyone to model myself on anyway, so being original is the plan.

Maybe this will be the start of something greater. Maybe this will just be what it is. I can't know.

But what I can know – what I do know – is that I'd regret not trying. And that while I should be and am the first person for whom I pursue this, there are others in my life who provide reasons. My friend John loves it when I write or talk about food. I know he would be delighted if I was able to turn my love of baking and food in general into something more. So I'm pursuing this for him, too.

And for my friends who have been such excellent cheerleaders through the years, no fewer than three of whom will have their hands in helping me with this video project: Dave, who is providing his HD camera and editing advice; Jay, who is donning his videographer hat for a day; and Doreen, who is providing the location.

And for my family who are loving and supporting no matter what I choose to do. If it weren't for Patty, I wouldn't even know about this.

And for L.A. Dave, who would be plotzing at the notion of me baking on TV.

When I lost my full-time job, I decided that I would follow whatever paths appeared in front of me.

This path is particularly intriguing.

I'll let you know where it leads.


Anonymous Alison said...

Aaaggh! GOOD LUCK! I'm so excited for you!

10:07 AM  
Blogger OneMan said...

Kick butt, and if you ever need studio audience members to snack you know how to reach me.

11:46 AM  
Blogger Beth said...

Thanks, Alison!

And Henry, I will indeed let you know when we get to the studio audience/snacker stage of production! : o )

11:52 AM  
Anonymous Tracy said...

That's awesome Beth, good luck! Be yourself and enjoy every freaking moment. I know you'll be great!

2:28 PM  
Blogger Natalie810 said...

Love it. Love you.

11:21 AM  
Blogger Beth said...

Thanks, Trac!

And thanks, Nat! Love you, too.

11:24 AM  

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